I recently sat, staring at my blog with a bit of bitterness lingering in my mouth. To me, this blog started off with such excitement and promise. I was giddy over the potential of my online diary (with pictures)! It was originally meant just for me. I suppose it is still, meant for just me, but it seems to be painting a picture of my current life as dull, boring, and uneventful. I suppose I am feeling that way as of late. It seems to be an accurate depiction. I look at my profile snippit and read this"
"A conglomeration of crafty, homey, greening goodness, Family Style Love is a way for me to find my way through life as a new mom in a two-mom household. With recent discoveries that I am becoming a dirty hippy, I am walking myself, and anyone else who wants to come with me, through the increasingly wonderful world that is my life, filled, of course, with Family Style Love."
Only, I don't feel that I am fulfilling any of those claims to myself or others. Crafty? Yeh, whatever, I can't even remember the last time I did anything that I would consider "crafty". Homey? Ummmm, the last time I posted anything about a project in my house was last March, I think, when we finished our main bathroom remodel. Greening goodness? Pshaw! I think that the last time I mentioned anything "green" was in some rant about chemicals in our daily lives... once again... I want to be inspiring. Of course, inspiring to others would be nice, but I want to inspire myself as well. I have not been doing that. I have a lot of things I am interested in doing, but have I done any of them? Nope. Is it a lack of time? Is it a lack of energy? Is it a lack of desire? Is it a lack of patience? Is it a lack of support? I have no idea. I feel so blase lately, and it is really bringing me down. What would a person be classified as when they have over 500 inspiring pictures of home decor ideas, for example, but has yet to utilize a single idea? Am I a perfectionist? Am I unenthusiastic? Am I broke? Am I all of the above? ugh. Any insight out there? What can I do to shake this nonsense???