Back on 12/14/07, I posted about my feelings reagarding the impending birth of my little boy...
"I feel as though I am walking around in a daze. I have not allowed myself to really even think about the potential pain that will be involved with a med-free birth. I guess that that is a really good thing, and although I don't need to "figure anything out" I am "trying to figure out" if I am really that clueless as to what awaits me, or if I have just managed to adopt a very ZEN feeling about the whole thing. I would like to think that I am being uber-zen, but I am not going to put myself on that pedestal (until at least, I deserve to...)"
Ok, I am still not putting myself on a pedestal, BUT, in retrospect, I was, indeed, being uber-zen about the whole thing. I do not feel at all that I was clueless as to what was going to happen, and the amount of pain I experienced was pretty dead-on to the amount of pain I anticipated feeling. I just trusted my body. I always told myself that my body knew what to do and I was right. By acknowledging the fact that chilbirth can be painful, and by visualizing the potential pain calmly and casually beforehand, I was not in for any surprises. I read many women's accounts of the sensation of the pain they felt. Some described it as dull stabbing, some described the feeling of wanting to crawl out of their skin. I prepared myself for transition and it's intensity by reminding myself that when I felt I simply COULD NOT DO IT anymore- that I was almost at the finish line. I trusted my body, I breathed and moaned my way calmly through it all, and in the end, my body eased my baby into the world, clamped down the blood vessels, and proceeded to provide immunities for him.
Don't doubt your bodies, ladies. If there is a glimmer of desire to have a home birth or a birth without unneccesary interventions, and your pregnancy has been healthy and uneventful, and your healthcare practioner does not see any risk, then DO IT. TRUST YOUR BODY. Do not be afraid, and have a good support system.