Monday, December 31, 2007

What a Year

Well folks, 2007 is finally coming to a close. Wow, what a year it has been! Every month had it's stories, it's accomplishments, it's trials. Here is a recap of my year:

January: I built a shed with the help of my close friend Vic
February: Mindi's father,(Our Son's namesake)lost his battle with kidney cancer on Valentine's day
March: We continued our journey with ttc, and experienced the insemination that worked (although we didn't know it at the time) and I was able to visit my parents for the first time back home since I moved to Seattle in September 2005.
April: This was the month that the pregnancy extravaganza began- the excitement was intoxicating!

May: We had our first ultrasound. Mindi's mother was able to be there with us for it. I never thought that a little black and white blob on a computer screen could be so beautiful...
June: The month of the "Extreme Nesting" house siding-scrubbing extravaganza...
July: The month that the belly really starts popping into a pregnant bump.

August: The month in which Mindi first felt the baby moving.
September: The Babymoon in San Diego- our last real vacation as a "couple".
October: The month of baby showers and my last days at work.

November: The month of our 2 year Wedding anniversary, and the month that I had the most fun taking pictures of my burgeoning belly.

December: Our last Channukah as a couple, More extreme nesting, and of course, the swift and beautiful arrival of our son, Harris.

This year has been the most life changing year for me. I am so happy and full of love for my whole family. Here's to a happy New Year to all of my friends, readers, stalkers, and lurkers. May 2008 see that your dreams come true!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

bye bye button

our wittle baby's stump fell off today which is cool. i was always afraid of it getting snagged on the folded diaper edge etc. we are almost to the point that we can explore gdiapers which is what we would like to use instead of disposables. We will have to wait for at least another week for that though, as our son will be having his bris milah tomorrow. i am still sooo tired. note the lack of proper capitalization etc.- that is what you get when one hand is typing and the other is holding a sleeping baby...

Friday, December 28, 2007

First Day out

Today was the first day that Mindi and I left the house with Harris. I have not even been out of the basement of my house since Sunday (BDAY). We had to take Harris to his first pediatrician's appointment (which went great). I got into my car to drive us to the appointment, and I could've sworn that Mindi's mom (from out of town) had rearranged my seat to drive it. After adjusting only the mirror, I couldn't figure out how else to adjust my car back to my normal seat adjustment. Everything seemed normal, but wrong at the same time.- The seat felt too far back, but I was comfortable with the pedal placement... my steering wheel seemed high up but it was on it's lowest setting.... then I realized it! The reason my seat felt "off" was because my belly was sitting in a carseat behind me...

We are all doing well- I am exhausted beyond my wildest imagination. I am averaging 3 hours of sleep per day- and those 3 hours are usually split into 2 chunks. uuuug...

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

The Birth Story

The Birth Story of Harris David

Our estimated Due Date was December 20, 2007. At 37 weeks, our midwives reported to us that I was 2 cm dilated and 50% effaced. We opted to do a membrane sweep at my 37 week and 38 week appointments. Our due date of December 20th came and went. On December 22nd, Mindi and I went to the mall (despite the crowds) to walk. I enjoyed the amusing looks that I got from people that noticed my big belly. After walking around in the mall, we decided to get dinner at a new Vietnamese restaurant that had just opened. It ended up being a really nice restaurant with live music. It was a wonderful place for what was to be our last romantic night alone as a couple. We arrived home at about 8pm. We relaxed in front of our computers. I noticed some Braxton Hicks contractions and started timing them. They were strong for Braxton Hicks contractions and they were coming around every six minutes. They radiated slightly to my back and I told Mindi about them. She got a big smile on her face, but I told her not to get too excited; that since I was a first timer, my labor would probably take at least 24 hours.

We decided to hit the sack early, knowing that the baby might come the next day or next night. I woke up at 7am the next morning to pee. I went to the bathroom in the dark and peed. I wiped, but “peed” again unexpectedly. I went back to bed and lay with Mindi for a bit. Shortly after I laid back down, I felt a trickle. I went back to the bathroom and flipped on the light. I wiped again- bloody show. My water had broken and the fluid was scant but clear. I went back to the bedroom and reported my findings to Mindi. We were both too excited to go back to sleep. I called the midwife just to let her know that my water had broken and we decided to go to the grocery store for some last minute snacks for the birth attendants and ourselves. We believed that it would be quite a while of “watch and wait” before the baby would come.

My contractions progressed steadily. We timed them for about 1 hour, looking for the telltale “4-1-1” or, contractions lasting at least 1 minute each, no more than 4 minutes apart, for 1 hour. The contractions were almost all over 60 seconds, ranging from 2.5 minutes to 4.5 minutes in between. I was coping well with the contractions, pacing around in between rooms while swaying, breathing deeply and moaning. Mindi was doing a great job timing the contractions and supporting me physically when I needed it. It was soothing to “slow dance” with her during some of the contractions. At this point, I was just going with the flow. I was not frantic or panicky, which was great. When the numbers were aligning for “4-1-1” Mindi called one of the midwives. I had begun to have some tears during a few of the contractions. The midwife asked Mindi to put me on the phone. She handed the phone to me and the midwife asked how I was feeling. I explained the intensity of the contractions to her and said that I believed that it was a good time for her to make her way to the house. She told me that I sounded too calm in between my contractions; that I was “still in a good mood”, and told me to wait to have her come until I was “in the zone”- meaning, the contractions were my only focus. I accepted that request and we hung up. That was 12:50pm. About 40 minutes later, I decided that I need to call my doula. She arrived at 2pm.

The contractions were coming strong and hard. Mindi was still timing them. They were consistently 2 minutes and 20 seconds apart, (and had been that way for about 40 minutes) lasting about 90 seconds. As soon as the doula showed up, Mindi began filling the inflatable labor tub with water. The doula was great- she followed me around and applied counter pressure to my low back and sacrum whenever I would stop walking and lean on a wall. I was moaning deeply and breathing heavily. 5 minutes later I was climbing into the pool. I was slightly afraid to get in because I was feeling pressure to move my bowels, and I did not want to do it in the pool…
The water in the pool felt great. I was on all fours, and the Doula was again applying counter pressure to my sacrum. Mindi was at my head with a cold washcloth, speaking softly to me during the contractions. After about 2 contractions, Mindi asked me “are you feeling pushy?”- I responded with “I don’t think so”. When the next 2 contractions came, I heard mindi saying to the doula “Is she pushing? I think she is pushing. Lynn, are you pushing?”. “I don’t know” was my response. I was shaking at this point. Mindi looked up at the doula and said “She is pushing, I am calling the midwife!” Mindi called one of the midwives at 2:26pm. She was trying to be calm and said “Lynn is feeling a lot of pressure, I think you should come NOW“. The midwife said that they were on their way. By 3:22pm the midwives still were not at the house. Mindi called the midwives again “I think she is pushing- where are you???” They said they were almost there.

Mindi was doing great- afterwards, I found out she was totally freaking out inside, but every time she was by my side she was acting cool as a cucumber which really helped me keep my wits about me.

The midwives showed up at 3:26pm. I was focusing so intently on my contractions and grunting through the urge to push that I barely noticed the midwives come in. They were both quiet, quickly shuffling through their things for their gloves, etc. heard one of them say “let’s check her”. I never heard the verdict of the check, but Mindi tells me that they quietly concurred that I was indeed, complete and ready to push. Because I did not hear them say anything, I was able to simply listen to my body’s urges, and push when I felt it was time. The only coaching that they did was to remind me to not force the baby out- to just let the baby come slowly as to help prevent tearing. I gave a few test pushes while following my gut. The midwives could tell I was pushing and checked me again. The midwife could see about a half dollar sized portion of the head. I continued to push and could feel the burn of the head crowning slightly. The contraction ended and I decided to take a break. I told Mindi I loved her and told her to reach in and feel the baby’s head, and she could feel the top. Another contraction began and I pushed with my body’s urges. With a big burning sensation, the baby’s head was born. The midwife checked for a cord around the neck and found none. Mindi looked past my back to see our baby’s face. One more contraction and I pushed out the baby’s body. It was harder than I expected it would be- almost as much work as birthing the head. Our baby was born at 3:57pm. Our doula announced the sex – it’s a boy! The midwives passed our baby between my legs after I stood up. The cord was a little short and so I sat back down in the water and cradled our little boy. After the cord was done pulsing, it was clamped by the midwives and cut by Mindi. Mindi had the most beautiful smile on her face.
The midwives helped me out of the pool, trembling from the adrenaline. I squatted over a bowl and delivered the placenta. It was quite an odd sensation after having just delivered the baby- it felt like a soft, squishy version of the head- (without the burning). I laid down on the bed with mindi. Mindi laid skin to skin with our little boy while the midwives assessed my “damages”. I had 1 second degree tear which the midwives took care in stitching.

Giving birth in my home was the most wonderful experience. The whole time I was being stitched, all I could talk about was how wonderful it was to be in my own house, not attached to any IVs or monitors, not feeling vulnerable with strangers and student aids and shift changes interrupting everything. Being able to have my baby cared for and assessed all within my view or in my arms, and not having to deal with bright lights and paper bed linens. It was such a loving atmosphere. This, coupled with the fact that my labor was speedy, but never too fast that I did not feel in control made it an experience that I will never forget, and one that I am eager to repeat.

Harris David, born at home with an assisted, unmedicated, home water birth at 40 weeks, 3 days. 2 midwives, 1 doula, and partner Mindi present. Water broke at 7am, active labor began at approximately 1pm, transition began at approximately 2:20pm, I began pushing at 3:30pm, and Harris was born at 3:57pm, weighing 6Lbs 14oz. We are in love!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Introducing Harris David

Thank you everyone for your well wishes! Harris was born at 3:57pm at home in a birthing pool with the help of a fantastic doula, 2 wonderful midwives, and my AWESOME WIFE Mindi. The labor moved very quickly. I will expound on my birth story in a day or so, but for now, I will leave you with some stats, and pictures!

Harris David
6Lbs 14oz
21 1/8inches
Head circumference 12 1/4 inches

Update #2

It is about 1:15. I have been having some very uncomfortable contractions. I would like to take a nap but I don't think I can. You guys rock- later.

Happy Bday Cousin!

I just wanted to shout a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my cousin! Hey, you just might share your birthday with our little one after all! Yippee!


After posting, Mindi and I decided to go to the grocery store. Wow, I have never been to the grocery store early on a Sunday morning- it was quite peaceful! We bought some bagels and other snacks that were easy to grab and eat. I had a few nice contractions while we were there but nothing I couldn't handle with the help of the shopping cart. I think that the walking helped. LOL- they had pineapple on sale, buy 1 get one- I couldn't resist and we brought 2 home hehe.

My body is certainly "working" for me- my bowels seem nice and cleaned out now ;). I called our Doula- she is about 2 hours away on a weekend trip (sorry!!!!) but is making her way back here.

I am leaking baby juice which is an interesting sensation- like if I sneeze, it feels like I peed myself...

Speaking of the baby, s/he is wiggling around in there which is comforting to me.

Ok, well that is the latest update! Check back later!

Today is the day?

Uh oh girls- here we go! I woke up this am to painful contractions- went to the bathroom and peed, wiped, then "peed" again... I went back to bed and started dripping- my water had (slowly) broken! I went back to the bathroom and wiped with the light on- bloody show! Here we go ladies! I will be updating my blog for stalkers as we are giving birth at home! Wish us luck!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Good Times

After moping around all morning, my girl convinced me that we should go out and walk. It was rainy and ugly out, so we decided to brave the mall despite the fact that it was the Saturday before Christmas... It was actually pretty fun- I got a lot of neat looks as if I had a big neon sign over my head saying "OVERDUE". It was good for some soft chuckles at least. I was so excited when I spotted a Brookstone store that had one of those foot massagers. A light bulb went on in my head like "Oh my God, a foot massage can bring on labor!". So I plopped down into the chair and proceeded to get jiggled and rubbed. Mindi had to help me put my shoes back on, as I can no longer reach my feet...

After braving the mall, we scampered off to dinner at a cute little Vietnamese restaurant. It was way cooler than we expected it to be- the decor was top notch and they even had live music- something we totally did not expect from the area of town we were dining in! We got home at about 8pm or so, and settled down in front of our computers. I started having my typical contractions. After about an hour, I started timing them using a great contraction-timing website called Contraction Master.

Get this... contractions every 5-8 minutes, lasting from 45-90 seconds a piece.

So that's pretty neat huh?

Don't get yourselves into a tizzy now- they are not even close enough to necessitate a phone call to the midwife, but at least I know my body is "gearing up" which is a good thing. I still think that this baby will be born on the 24th. If I am right about that, then tomorrow, my body should start "kicking it up a notch".

...But who really knows... ;)

40w2d still pregnant

Hey, but THATS ok! All in good time- I think I am going to go shopping today and walk- um, a lot. :)

Friday, December 21, 2007


Much to Mindi's enjoyment and pleasant surprise, I have surrendered the Snoogle. It was becoming a "sore spot" in our relationship, and not only did I decide that it was causing me more discomfort than good, but losing it would allow us to be closer in these last fleeting days. Mindi felt that it took up too much room in the bed, and while I enjoyed the extra support I got from it, it was becoming increasingly more and more difficult to get up to pee 3x a night because I had to crawl over the pillow to get out of bed. I think that I have slept better in the last three nights sans Snoogle than I have in the last few weeks with it. Don't get me wrong, I suggest that any and all pregnant womwn get a Snoogle or other body pillow, but at this point it is done for me!

Project: Eject Baby has come to an impasse. After eating all of that pineapple and practically burning my tongue off, I realized, like many of my faithful readers pointed out, that I was straying away from my "uber-zen" state of mind. I suppose that it certainly kept me entertained for a while, but It did make me stress out a little... For now, I will just continue to sit on my faithful birth ball and bounce cuz it's fun, I will have pineapple as the fruit portion of lunch today instead of my typical apple, simply because I have 2 pineapples in my kitchen, and If I am feeling really sassy, I may continue to pump just because I really would like to breastfeed our baby, but due to a reduction surgery I had done on the girls in 2004, I know I may not be able to do so. I figured, that if I "gave my boobs a workout" before the baby came, maybe I would have a better chance of breastfeeding when the baby arrives.

Little baby, take your time. I lost my focus for a little bit, but fear not my love, you still have an uber-zen mama that wants you to come when you are good and ready :). If that means that everyone waits for 2 more weeks- that is juuuust dandy!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

the 40W picture

Mindi and I went to Target today to walk walk walk. I had a coupon for a free coffee at the Starsucks and decided to cash in. As I am waiting in line, 2 women decided that they had permission to:

1. ask me the status of my girlie parts
2. make me feel fatter than I already do by asking if I was having twins
3. tell me that it was "such a shame" that I was GOING to have a Christmas baby
4. tell me the gory details about the tears they got while giving birth

I was never so happy to say, "oh, I have to go pee now! Bye bye!

I will never understand, and hopefully, I won't have to think about it for much longer!

For your viewing pleasure, I am proud to give you my 6week and 40week belly shots.

Please, enjoy, and also, please note how I totally have NOT dropped AT ALL, and how high this baby is sitting in my belly! Man, I have been bouncing on this damn birth ball for 4 days straight and nothing!!! grrrrrrrr.....

For anyone who knows what a "station" is- this baby is at -3 station. For those who don't know the stations by heart: station=where the baby's head is in relation to the pelvis. -3 station is almost floating in the uterus, 0 station is right at the opening to the cervix, and +3 station is crowning. This baby is barely engaged in my pelvis, which is probably the reason I am not really waddling, and I don't have that "bowling ball between the legs sensation". I can't complain about the lack of a bowling ball, but they do say that first time mother's babies are usually "engaged" at least at a -1 station by the time they go into labor.

What about you girls with experience? How early did you drop? Was the head engaged when labor started for you??

Due TODAY 40weeks and counting...

Anonymous- I am sorry you were wrong about the baby not coming on the 19th (yesterday)... you have NO IDEA how sorry I really am...

Jenny- You are sooooo right about the pineapple- but it tasted better than Castor oil...

MD Baby Maker- you are ALSO so right about the pineapple!

MaMaMia- We will be filling the tub using a garden hose and a faucet adapter. We have a bathroom next to the "birthing room" and a long enough hose. We also have a water pump to get the water out afterwards. The faucet adapter was purchased at Lowes. Almost all hardware stores have them :).

Project: Eject Baby Update
Ok, so last night, as you know, we purchased 4 fresh pineapples. After getting some strange looks from the guy ahead of us in line and some knowing smiles from our friendly cashier, we headed home. It was a little too early for me to eat at 6pm- I had just indulged in a Chai Tea Latte and I needed to wait till I was hungry. 8pm rolled around and I began slicing. I absolutely LOVE pineapple. I was determined to eat all four in one sitting. As I was slicing the second pineapple, Mindi suggested that I just eat those two and come back and slice the other two later. I reluctantly agreed.

This is what I was up against:

The pineapple was good- I got really lucky that they were ripe, but at about this point, the pineapple really started loosing it's appeal:

By the time I reached this point, my tongue was burning, my bowels were screaming and by stomach was retching...

It was a barforific experience. Needless to say, it did NOT put me into labor grumble grumble... and now, I am pooping pineapple, and my tongue burns so bad that I had a hard time eating my Cheerios for breakfast... And lets not forget, I only made it through 2 pineapples. The other two beauties are in the kitchen waiting for me- maybe for lunch- although I risk not having a tongue when it is over- I will have to weigh the risks...

So what next?
Citrucel, and LOTS OF IT

Does anyone else have any suggestions??? ANYONE???

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Project: Eject Baby Update

OK, first I want to address some questions/comments on the birthing pool. Our birthing pool is really a kiddie pool.

It cost me about $25.00 plus shipping online. There are inflatable pools out there for purchase that are meant to be birthing pools- they are deep and have handles inside to grasp. They are much more expensive, however, because they are called "birthing pools" and not just "kiddie pool". The kiddie pool I purchased is also on the site above, but I found it cheaper elsewhere. You can look at the specs if you want. 2 people can easily fit in the pool I purchased. It is not necessarily my goal to "birth in the water". If that is where I end up being most comfortable, great, but my main goal is to use it as a form of pain relief and relaxation during what will be unmedicated contractions. I also have a bed in the same room that I may decide to birth on instead. In response to a comment about water births being frowned upon, I have heard that as well, but I have never really heard of any reasoning behind the claim. If you have any insight into the matter, please, I would like to hear about it. I googled YWCA and water birth but only came up with positives. i would love to read the article!

Before I forget, I wanted to point out how cute my wife's little butt is here:

Now, back to project: eject baby...

what we have tried:

Spicy Food

Birth Ball

Breast Pumping/ Nipple Stimulation


Next up...
Pineapple... and LOTS of it!

"Pineapple is said to induce labor as well. Pineapple, as well as papaya and mango, contain a proteolytic enzyme called bromelain. When bromelain is consumed with meals, it assists in the digestion of proteins. When taken on an empty stomach, bromelain acts medicinally as an anti-inflammatory agent. Therefore, naturopathic medicine uses this enzyme to reduce pain and swelling."
I will report back with my results after my "pineapple dinner". My goal is to eat 4 pineapples in one sitting, but I will cut 2 at a time... just in case...

Oh, and Renee- I am on Pacific time FYI :)


ok, it is 4pm and there is no change. Mindi's girly parts were examed and I took the opportunity to check out her cervix- hey, she has seen mine during inseminations, and I was curious what it looked like. It was neat-o :).

I did change the sheets before the appointment, and then, when I got home I scrubbed the bathroom sink and toilet and pulled the rug up to wash. Now I am totally pooped!

We aired up the birthing pool (we are planning a home birth but are registered at the hospital if we neeed to go. We are working with 2 midwives and a doula). I am glad I filled up the pool with air- it took a lot longer than I would have been able to handle if I were actually in labor. Now we just have to sit here and hope one of the kitty claws doesn't go through the tub!

The baby has the hic-hic-hiccups!

Oh girls, I can't wait for everyone who is ttc right now to get preggers!!! Keep trying- we almost gave up too and look where we are now!!! Lovingly stalked at 40weeks!

39w 6d

G'mornin' everyone! I am amazed that I am up and posting this early- typically, I am still sleeping, but for some reason, I woke up an hour before the alarm went of with racing thoughts of scouring my bathroom sink and scrubbing the toilet, and changing the sheets of the bed I was laying in... Hmmmmm...

I am joining Mindi for her yearly girlie-parts exam. I will have to make a concious effort not to remove my pants when I walk into the Dr.s office- this will be the first time I will be walking into an OB/GYN office and not disrobing for a stranger! Yay!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

4.5 ounces of Sweet Love...

No, not a really tiny baby. I am talking about this...

I promised you the results, so here goes...

LOL (inward thoughts *my God, I can't believe I am telling the entire Internet population about my excursions with the enema bottle"- an enema big enough to "bottle feed a cow" at that lol...)

Everything went, well, WENT with the enema bottle. It did not bring on as many contractions as I had hoped it would however. Because of that, Mindi and I decided to try some serious nipple stimulation. Mindi did a little googling online to find out what the most effect nipple stimulation protocol was. We followed the instructions, and it looked like this...

A dim bathroom with a heater running and lit candles. A warm bath was run. A hand towel was soaked in bathwater and laid as a compress across my bosom (hehe). Mindi rubbed and tweaked my nips through the towel for extra sensation. The key was to rub through the towel for 15 minutes on each nipple, or until a contraction began. I (the pregnant person) was supposed to relax through the nipple wrenching. We were supposed to do each nipple twice. Nip rub #1 brought on a decent contraction after 10 minutes of rubbing, as did nip rub #2. We refreshed some of the bath water and started again with nip #1. It achieved a contraction after only 5 minutes of stimulation, as did nip rub #2 of the second set.

I get out of the tub and we eat dinner. Where did the contractions go? Damn it.

So, I return to my birth ball and start Hula Hooping. YOWSERS! The contractions are stronger on the ball than they have been, and as soon as I start to move, I get those contractions.

I am currently on my ball, using my breast pump for more nipple stimulation. It is pretty funny to watch I am sure, so I will share...

My anonymous friend "R" still says that I will give birth tomorrow at some point. Anyone else have any predictions?

39w 5d and counting- Begin Project: Eject Baby

Ok girls, thanks for your responses on when you went into labor so far- keep up the good work, and stop being chicken! If you haven't responded, please do- it makes me feel warm and fuzzy!

We have officially begun "Project: Eject Baby". Now, I realize that the baby will come when it is good and ready. I know, that short of a C-section, there is no 100% method to getting your baby out before your baby says "hey mom, I am ready"! But, for my own sanity, the sanity of my partner Mindi, and the pure entertainment of all the fantastic visitors to my blog, let the project begin!

What have we been doing so far? Walking. Up until this point, I have just been doing some casual walking (in stores and such) to help bring the baby lower into the pelvis.

And, as you know (per my last post) I tried the "My head is going to explode if my ass doesn't first hot sauce"

Now, we are going to start bringing out the biggER guns. I will keep everyone updated on the new things we try...

Currently working on: The Birth Ball

-Said to aid in bringing the baby lower into the pelvis to help gravity dilate the cervix, as well as help open the "pelvic outlet" to allow the baby to pass through more easily. "Hula Hooping" motions on the ball are said to help open the pelvic outlet as well, and for me personally, they have been bringing on some pretty sweet contractions! (Like right now! Yowsers!)

Next up: The Enema...

I'll let you know how that turns out... teehee

Monday, December 17, 2007

39weeks, 4 days and counting...

Ok girls. When did YOU *spontaneously* go into labor?? I want answers ladies! All of you lurkers out there with experience better comment on this post because, based on my site meter, I currently get about 60 hits a day and I am sure that MOST of you are female, and MANY of you have kids already!!!

Please don't torture the pregnant lady by not answering!

Teehee- thanks, I love you all!

Oh, and for your visual stimulation- a picture of the exhausted mama-to-be taken last night after running mondo errands, followed by a picture of how I chose to torture myself, oops, I mean, induce labor by asking the waiter at the Mexican restaurant for "The hottest shit you have in your kitchen"- yeh, my ass burned for 2 days...

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Girls girls girls...

You are all too cute! I didn't mean I was in labor... just waiting for labor to start hehe. Sorry for the false alarm! I had no idea anyone would take it that way. I am quite flattered to be the object of at least one person's refresh button! I remember back in the day when JudeCorp and Babycakes were expecting- I had both of there pages up constantly and I was constantly refreshing the pages looking for new posts about labor!!! I know that I will soon have the same watch going for Jenny. You guys are too cute!!


Need I say more?

Saturday, December 15, 2007

"The Recap" for Renee and Janice

I really appreciate the fact that people actually read my blog. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I also really appreciate it when people ask me questions. It makes me feel as though my experiences ARE actually worth something to someone besides me. I got a great question from Renee and Janice...
"Oh.. one more question, I saw you all have not found out what you are having, I give you much credit for that, I am way too OCD. Have you had any dreams either way? Or any thoughts? Also, I wanted to see if you could post your TTC process, how many times and the time it worked, what did you all do?
THanks so much!!"

Well Renee and Janice, I am glad that you ask. I didn't start an honest to goodness blog until I BECAME pregnant. Blogging has been such a great experience that I am kind of kicking myself for not blogging about our TTC journey- maybe I thought that no one would give a hoot about some lesbos trying to get knocked up, but I have found that we are simply one of MANY lesbian families desiring to start a family! So now, to answer your questions...

As far as the sex of the baby, I think I have had 1 dream that it was a boy, and 1 dream that it was a girl. Nothing too intriguing there lol.

As far as what we did? Well, heeeeeeeeeeeeeeere goes!

My partner Mindi and I began our TTC journey in May 2006, 2 months after buying a house, 6 months after getting "married", and almost 4 years after becoming a couple. We didn't know exactly where our journey would take us, but we did know a few things.
1. We wanted to use an anonymous donor
2. We wanted it to happen as quickly and effectively as possible
3. We would have to pay for everything out of pocket

I viewed TTC the same way as I would view, say, a new roofing job. There are 3 things that people want when they hire someone to do something. People want...
1. inexpensive
2. fast
3. quality

I also know, however, that it is almost impossible to get all three things from a contractor. You can get a "quick n dirty job done for cheap" a "quality job that takes for-ev-er for cheap", or you can get a fast, high quality job done that will cost you a fortune! We decided that we were willing to pay more if it would take a shorter amount of time and if the techniques we were using would potentially be more effective.

We went straight to a doctor. We purchased and stored frozen anon sperm. We told the doc that we "wanted to get the show on the road". "Drug me, poke me, prod me- just get me pregnant" is pretty much exactly what I said to her. And so, the journey began. It was pretty much the same protocol from the first try. I have mild PCOS and so we started the first cycle with a low dose of Clomid. The clomid make my ovaries go nutso, so after a 2 month break to let my ovaries get over the shock, we continued on with femera- a milder ovulation enhancing drug. So, then it began FOR REAL... CD1 period, CD3-CD7 femera, CD12 follicle study (dildo cam internal ultrasound to check for ripe follicles,)CD 12 or 13 HcG booster shot(to aid ovulation), CD 13 or 14 IUI (inter uterine insemination), 2WW (two week wait). We did this exact same protocol for 8 cycles total. The first 2 cycles we inseminated twice each cycle, and the cycles after that we only inseminated once each cycle. After the 5th cycle, I had an HSG dye test to make sure my tubes were healthy. The cycle that worked had 1 change to it. TIMING. As anyone trying to get pregnant knows TIMING IS EVERYTHING. I had had a feeling that we may have been inseminating a little too soon (24 hours after the HcG booster). I always felt as if the spermies were dead by the time the egg finally decided to show. I asked my doctor, since it was our last vial of sperm in the deep freeze, if she would consult with an RE for this last cycle before IVF. She did; we inseminated closer to 34 hours later and BINGO!

Friday, December 14, 2007

39week picture

As promised- here it is. Maybe I won't make it to 40 weeks??? -Don't hold your breath Lynn...

Oh, and for shits and giggles- I wanted to post a picture of me trying to play pool with an obnoxiously large belly getting in the way (this is a glimpse of the hott mama at that work holiday party by the way...)

Oh, and one more really sweet picture I managed to get today of Mindi sharing in the belly love...

Cool Calm and Collected- Denial maybe?

So.... we are 6 days away from our due date (mind you, due dates should not exist- not even "estimated due dates"- it gives people too much of an expectation...). I am still very VERY calm. I feel normal (maybe a little achy, like I over-did a yoga workout). From my point of view (literally, my visual point of view) The only thing that reminds me I am pregnant are the odd movements I can see in my tummy, the fact that I can't see my feet without bending forward slightly, and the fact that my ankles are slightly swollen. If I were to sit down and over analyze these three things (like a Pisces typically does) I could say that I am not really pregnant- my ankles are swollen because I need to drink more water, I can't see my feet without tilting forward because I over-indulged in spicy Mexican food and holiday cookies, and the odd movements in my belly? Um, nerve twitches- maybe like an extremely large version of the fricking 'eye twitch'- you know, the one that you can see because it is your eyelid, but everyone else swears that they don't notice it... Honestly, it isn't until I see my side reflection in a window or mirror that I find myself saying "holy shit, I really AM pregnant".

I can't figure out if I don't feel pregnant because...
I am not nearly as uncomfortable as many 39week + women portray themselves to be,
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I am still in disbelief that the 8th IUI after 7 failed cycles actually worked,
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I went to my "work Holiday party" and looked hott and bosom-rific in my black dress,
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I went in and worked Tuesday night because I wanted something to do
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I don't have insane heartburn
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I don't have hemorrhoids
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I am not really waddling
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I am not scared AT ALL about the birth of the baby (yet anyway)
or if I don't feel pregnant because...
I have grown accustomed to seeing the bulky baby items floating around the house...
I think I could go on and on and on at this point.

I feel as though I am walking around in a daze. I have not allowed myself to really even think about the potential pain that will be involved with a med-free birth. I guess that that is a really good thing, and although I don't need to "figure anything out" I am "trying to figure out" if I am really that clueless as to what awaits me, or if I have just managed to adopt a very ZEN feeling about the whole thing. I would like to think that I am being uber-zen, but I am not going to put myself on that pedestal (until at least, I deserve to...)

Mindi is super cute. As I mentioned before, she is soooo excited to meet the baby. "I can't wait to meet you baby!" usually follows every other sentence out of her mouth and I love her for it. It is when she asks me if I am ready to "push that kid out" that I find myself wondering for a split second- "what the hell is she talking about?" until I realize (once again) "oh yeh- I am pregnant"! Man, I feel so "in a fog" about it... It is not until Mindi starts talking about the actual labor that I find myself thinking about what is to come. The actual physical aspect of birth is something that I have managed to NOT over-evaluate (as is that Pisces way...) Of course, then I start writing a long-winded blog about it and... amazingly, I am still not really thinking about it. Weird. Maybe I am just super-zen woman.

Wow, if you have read this far- you either have tons of patience or tons of free time. Either way, thanks for letting me blah blah blah. Maybe I will get around to a 39week picture today...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

The Oven Is Hot

The bun is still baking. We had another appointment today. There was no change from last week, but I am still "really ripe" (I keep thinking of peaches when I hear that...). I had another membrane sweep- mmmm it felt so goooood (that was sarcasm). Hopefully, this membrane sweep will throw me into labor... but people, don't hold your breath... Mindi may be holding her breath (cuz she's so dang excited!) but I promise, if I see her turning blue, I will GLADLY give her mouth-to-mouth. teehee so dirty...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Mama Mindi is getting anxious!

We are on our way to 39 weeks (coming this Thursday). I have been having tons of contractions- some I can barely feel, others that are more intense. My girl is so cute- she never wants me to be alone at this point. Some of her coworkers are throwing her a little baby shower today- I think that it is super sweet because most baby showers focus on the pregnant lady, but I will not even be there (visitors are not allowed in the building). I am really happy that people are celebrating HER for once, and not me. She was pretty nervous about "coming out" to her coworkers about "having a baby" soon. Luckily, she just took the angle of "I am adopting a baby and will be taking a little time off". I am really happy for her :) She was nervous about leaving me at home during the baby shower, but I assured her that I would be juuuust fine!

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Extreme Nesting Revisited

Do you remember, back in the day, when I was 13 weeks pregnant, up on a 12 foot ladder, scrubbing the siding of my house? Here is a photo to help refresh your memory...

Well, about a week ago, Seattle got some nasty snow, which looked like this...

That snow, led to LOTS OF RAIN, making our basement look like this...

After our soggy basement partially dried up, the soon to be mothers (yes, Mindi included) decided that they MUST RID THE HOUSE OF MILDEW, and thus, in a fit of extreme nesting, rented a rug cleaner, giving Lynn an experience that initially looked like this...

But Lynn conquered the beast and the scene soon turned into this...

We now have the cleanest carpets on the block- all in time for Channukah...

And by the way, remember when I was 6 weeks preggers and I photoshopped a picture to look like what I thought I might look like at 38weeks? Here it is- I was WAY OFF- don't ya think? LOL

Thursday, December 6, 2007

38 weeks

WOW. 38 weeks. I am still pregnant. It is fine. I feel fine. Mindi is SUPER EXCITED- as am I of course, but I realize that if I let myself think about it too much, I start over analyzing everything which makes me scared about the upcoming event. If I don't think about it, I am a cool cucumber. There are no other big changes- the baby hasn't dropped yet, but then again, some babies never "drop". It is pretty cute though, whenever I call my parents or mindi calls her mom, they freak out. I guess it is to be expected- and it is so cute to see. They always think that we are in labor when we call. But alas, no baby yet!

On a different subject- I like the ticker I have above the posts. I think that it is neat to see the different baby sizes etc. I like the colors (very gay) and it is easy to see. When you go to the site, you get to choose whether you want the text to be "Humorous" or "developmental". Most of the tickers that have text are purely developmental, and so, I chose humorous. I didn't realize though, that what they considered "humorous" was so, well, tasteless and/or grotesque... I think that most of it is funny, but some of it is a little harsh... I mean, for example, they had a blurb one week about how "my baby currently has more brain cells than Paris Hilton". Now, I don't feel that Paris Hilton is the brightest flashlight, but I am also not the kind of person that enjoys poking fun at others. I don't know, call it karma if you will. Also, I think the text can be a little grotesque at times... I mean, sheesh- last week it talked about how "mommy feels as though there is a baby up her butt..." up my butt? Very classy... and this week, I apparently have hemorrhoids and diarrhea... wow, I had no idea and am speechless... I don't know, I thought that the "humorous" text would be less nasty and more funny, but I never had enough of an urge to change it because some of the blurbs were funny, and at this point, I only have a few weeks left soooo... yeh.

Please excuse the pregnant ramblings.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Frickin' Frackin'... grumble grumble...

We live in WA. It rains a lot here in the winter. We just experienced a torrential rainfall and now our basement is a bit, well, squishy... It really sucks. For the last 2 days I have been without my computer and constantly changing out damp towels for dry ones on my floor. We are not wading in water or anything, but it is a pretty big inconvenience. Our basement is currently all moved around (to prevent more water damage) and we are due to have a baby here soon! ACK! The last thing I want is to be in labor and dealing with mold... we have already ordered our favorite mold- removal solution and it is in the mial. I think we will be renting a carpet cleaner in a few days- wish us luck!

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Was that something? Let the questions begin!

Today I am 37w3d. Last night I woke up to an uncomfortable contraction, followed shortly after by another uncomfortable contraction... I have been having more frequent Braxton Hicks or "practice" contractions lately, which is totally normal for a persona at my stage in pregnancy. I notice, however, that when I have a contraction at night time, and I am laying down, and if I have to pee, then the contractions are stronger feeling. Not painful, just stronger. But last night, they hurt. 2 in a row. I jumped (yeh, right, wriggled, squirmed, whatever) out of bed to go potty. I found myself thinking, as I sat on the toilet, "should I call the midwife?". Then I must have snapped back to reality because I bonked myself on my forhead with my head, thinking to myself that if I had to ask myself if I should call the midwife, then it ws not time to call. I have full faith and onfidence that I WILL KNOW when I am in labor. I went back to bed without another thought and awoke this morning to the cozy little wiggles of the wee babe in my belly.

Friday, November 30, 2007

37 weeks

Well, we hit full term yesterday! Here are some 37 weeks pictures- the baby should be coming in 0-5 weeks now! Come out come out little baby! We are ready for you!! Teehee!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

No more Smiles

Over the course of the last 4 and a half years together, I have come to realize time and time again that it is almost impossible to say to Mindi "smile for the camera" and have her flash a beautiful, painless, toothy smile. She has this "photo smile" that she does- it is half smiling, half, well, miserable(see exhibit A)...

Don't get me wrong, I am NOT making fun of my girl, I am just acknowledging a personality trait in her. Well, on Sunday, we both had a revelation! If Mindi doesn't want to smile for a picture, then the logical thing would be to make her frown for one! She liked this idea. I did too for 2 reasons... reason 1, Mindi frowning or making some silly, non smiling face, melts my heart like watching a little puppy sliding on a slick linoleum floor, and reason 2, I have discovered that her goofy face is usually immediately followed by the most beautiful smile or grin in the world, and if my trigger finger is on the ball, I can manage to capture that smile on film as well- note, exhibit B and C.

See, now isn't that a BEAUTIFUL Smile?!

Monday, November 26, 2007

2 Wonderful Years

November 26, 2007 marks the 2 year anniversary of our wedding. I love you Mindi, it has been a wonderful 2 years, and it is about to get even better!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

They sure don't make them like they used to...

I am a pregnant person. I have gained weight during my pregnancy. Most pregnant people feel like Cows at some point in their pregnancy. My "I feel like a cow" moment came when I sat down on the toilet and the seat cracked. Yes, that's right, the fat cow pregnant person broke the friggin' toilet seat! grumble grumble grumble. We just went to pick up a new seat since we could no longer sit on the seat without it pinching our delicate thighs... The crack is narrow, but man, does it pack a punch with it's pinch when you are least expecting it! Sigh...


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